Stefan: Would you like to come in?
Elena: The comet's actually this way. Sorry for barging in. Especially after earlier.
Stefan: No, no. I'm glad you're here. The way we left things... I didn't like it.
Elena: See, the thing is, I got home tonight planning on doing what I always do, write in my diary, like I have been since my mom gave me one when I was 10. It's where I get everything out, everything I'm feeling. It all goes in this little book that I hide on the second shelf behind this really hideous ceramic mermaid. But then I realized that I'd just be writing things that I should probably be telling you.
Stefan: What would you write?
Elena: I would write... "Dear diary, today I convinced myself it was ok to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama, now is just not the time. But my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth, and the truth is that..." I'm scared, Stefan. I'm scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment that... the world's just going to come crashing down, and I... I don't know if I can survive that.
Stefan: Do you want to know what I would write? "I met a girl. We talked. It was epic. But then the sun came up and reality set in. Well, this is reality.Right here."
Stefan goes outside and takes his phone to call someone.. Elena enters her bedroom and finds a drawing from Jeremy for her birthday. She prepares to go to bed. Her phones vibrates. She doesn't notice it immediately but she finally answers...
Elena: Hello? Hello? Hello? It's Stefan but he doesn't answer Stefan? Stefan, if this is you... You'll be ok. You can survive this. Whatever you do, I love you, Stefan. Hold on to that. Never let that go. He doesn't say anything but he tries to hold is tears.
Elena: Caroline's dad! Stefan, he was able to resist compulsion. I don't know how, but he did it. Maybe it's possible.
Stefan: Yeah, yeah. Maybe it's just mind control, right? Maybe it just takes some focus, a couple decades of training. No big deal
Elena: Stefan, you can control this. When that buzzer goes off, just... just drink from me
Stefan: You don't get it. I can't stop, Elena! I'm a ripper! A ripper doesn't stop! I listen to the words that come out of your mouth, and all I hear is the sound of your heart pumping blood through your body. And when that clock ticks down... I'm going to have to feed on you. And you want to know what's worse? I'm not going to be able to stop
Elena: I don't believe that. You can fight it. You just have to want it bad enough
Stefan: Why, because I love you?
Elena: Yeah! That's right, Stefan. Because you love me. You'll fight because after everything that we've been through, you owe me that!
Stefan: You know what, you're right. You're right. I owe you everything. Because through all of this, you are the one thing that has kept me from giving up; from turning it all off. But I can't help what I am, Elena. The more blood that I get, the more I want, and if I get so much as near yours... You are dead.
Stefan: We were in this gym the night Klaus compelled me to turn my feelings off. I thought I hit rock bottom in the twenties, but... after I bit you, I never wanted to feel anything again. But someone... kept telling me that it was ok to feel... No matter how much it hurt... That our emotions would make us human, good or bad, and to never lose hope.
Elena: Who gave you that horrible advice?
Stefan: Some girl I used to date.
Elena: I don't have anyone anymore. She cries...
Stefan: You have me.